I have so much to say...but I don't even know how to get it all out. I'm learning so much. God is so gracious.
Barry left for camp yesterday, and will return on Friday evening. Sveta and I will miss him greatly, and we know he'll miss us. It will be a challenging week for us all for so many reasons - only one of which is that I'm 37.5 weeks pregnant. But God...
He's here. Here's in TN with Barry. He's faithful. He's not leaving. He's not surprised by what today or this week brings. I'm choosing to believe HIM...not just believe in Him. I'm choosing to believe that His Word is true. I'm choosing to believe that I am called to be like Him, and even though my flesh doesn't always want to - I will choose to walk in His shadow.
"Do nothing [c]from [d]selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; 4 do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. 5 Have this attitude [e]in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus, 6 who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be [f]grasped, 7 but [g]emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. 8 Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death [h]on a cross...Do all things without grumbling or disputing; 15 so that you will [i]prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you [j]appear as [k]lights in the world, 16 holding [l]fast the word of life..." Phil. 2:3-8, 14-16a
I will put others first, and stop looking out for my personal interests. I will have that as an attitude, because my Jesus chose to obey the Father and die...and I desire to be obedient as well. I will have such an attitude, that I will do it without grumbling or disputing...but rather with joy because as I hold fast to the Word of Life, I will be a light to the world. And ultimately, that's what I'm called to be.
So today I'm singing this song: Blessings by Laura Story...
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It's not our home
'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
I'm singing this song, because choosing this path isn't the easiest. I'd like to play the pregnant wife card and have my husband with me this week...but guess what - it's not the blessing that He wants to give. He's going to bless some other way, and I believe that Barry will be blessed by being in His presence in amazing creation, and with incredible students as he leads them into the throne room where they will worship Hm in song.
Today, I choose to be grateful for the blessings that come through tears...and the trials that are mercies in disguise.
Barry left for camp yesterday, and will return on Friday evening. Sveta and I will miss him greatly, and we know he'll miss us. It will be a challenging week for us all for so many reasons - only one of which is that I'm 37.5 weeks pregnant. But God...
He's here. Here's in TN with Barry. He's faithful. He's not leaving. He's not surprised by what today or this week brings. I'm choosing to believe HIM...not just believe in Him. I'm choosing to believe that His Word is true. I'm choosing to believe that I am called to be like Him, and even though my flesh doesn't always want to - I will choose to walk in His shadow.
"Do nothing [c]from [d]selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; 4 do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. 5 Have this attitude [e]in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus, 6 who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be [f]grasped, 7 but [g]emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. 8 Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death [h]on a cross...Do all things without grumbling or disputing; 15 so that you will [i]prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you [j]appear as [k]lights in the world, 16 holding [l]fast the word of life..." Phil. 2:3-8, 14-16a
I will put others first, and stop looking out for my personal interests. I will have that as an attitude, because my Jesus chose to obey the Father and die...and I desire to be obedient as well. I will have such an attitude, that I will do it without grumbling or disputing...but rather with joy because as I hold fast to the Word of Life, I will be a light to the world. And ultimately, that's what I'm called to be.
So today I'm singing this song: Blessings by Laura Story...
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It's not our home
'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
I'm singing this song, because choosing this path isn't the easiest. I'd like to play the pregnant wife card and have my husband with me this week...but guess what - it's not the blessing that He wants to give. He's going to bless some other way, and I believe that Barry will be blessed by being in His presence in amazing creation, and with incredible students as he leads them into the throne room where they will worship Hm in song.
Today, I choose to be grateful for the blessings that come through tears...and the trials that are mercies in disguise.
I am so, so proud of you and the way you are walking in Truth. He goes before you and will never abandon you. Thank you for walking with Jesus and glorifying Him so well, even through the trials. And thanks for being real as you do it. Love you, my friend!
ReplyDeleteThanks for posting this today. I needed it. :) Good luck this week and in the next few weeks before your precious little baby is here!
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