I've gone mad...

So, I just typed out an entire blog entry and then deleted it.  It just didn't sit right with me...so here I go again - hopefully this time it'll be something worth writing (and reading).

I've been researching like mad.  I think I am mad.  Not angry mad, but crazy mad.  I'm becoming obsessed with finding:

• grants to apply for to help with adoption costs
• an International Adoption doctor
• a pediatrician
• information about orphanages in Vladimir
• information about our daughter

That is just the short list.  I'm pretty sure Barry is hoping that someday soon we can talk about other things again - like the weather, or something!  It seems to come in waves - research, cry, peace, research, cry, peace.  My prayer is that I would simply have peace knowing that God is going to bring our family together in His perfect timing...not mine.  I keep wanting to speed up the process...I want to make sure that everyone has our FedEx account number and can send us documents speedily.  I'm ready to drive to Indianapolis or wherever to get something signed so we can get it in the mail and get started on the next step.  Some people would think I'm insane, but it's all in an effort to make sure that I'm doing my part to bring her home as soon as possible. 

Thankfully, my prints came back from the FBI and cleared...so our homestudy is complete and being reviewed by the placing agency before it is finalized and sent to us to be apostilled with our other documents.  I'm dying for this to be done!!  Then it'll be in the stage before travel! (I just as I was typing this received an email saying that I won't have it until the end of next week most likely...I guess that means I can slow down, and stop watching for it).  God is teaching me so much about just BEING in HIS presence, and not just "doing" all the time.

Also, thankfully we're coming along with funding.  We're blessed beyond measure - and are pleased to have 39 puzzle pieces taken care of!  Only 141 to go.  AMAZING!

Love to all.
Jessi